Grief.

I carry it with me wherever I go

Shopping aisles appointments doctors waiting rooms

Missing lines on flimsy sticks

Made of hope and desperation

Empty arms and deflated heart

I loved you with all of my soul

Replacing my loss with your small small hands in mine

Somewhere between heartache and healing I lost you 

again.

Grief

I carry it with me

Wherever I go.

Your red ribbon floats away

taking my heart with it.

Ripping me apart from the inside

Pain flows through

From the top of my body

Down to my toes

Red ribbon swirling around me

Steam smearing glass

I pushed you out

away.

I was careless

I lost you somewhere between the grocery store and the

garden center.

Too wrapped up in the dreaming of the future instead of

Holding you close.

I look for you in lines and tests

Racing down aisles wringing my hands

Madam have you seen my baby?

I lost you in the lines and tests.

I was careless.

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In an attempt to get back into a writing habit, I'm jumping in (late) to Ann Dee Ellis's 8 Minute Memoir. 

3 Days a week she gives a prompt and for 8 minutes you write whatever comes to your mind.